This High School Thing

For those of you looking for an upbeat post about homeschooling the high school years, look elsewhere 🙂 I love to encourage homeschooling mothers but this is a “I don’t have a clue” post! It’s where I am… but I know it’s not where I am going to stay!

I’ve been anxious about school lately.

I love homeschooling and I’m passionate about it. However, I’d be lying to say that it’s easy. Sometimes its hard. Lately, its been really hard. I feel as if I’m brand new at teaching my children at home. Actually, I’ve been more stressed lately than when I first started. Why? Because I am overwhelmed with teaching high school.

I never said I was going to “do” high school. At first, I said we’d take it year by year.  Once, a long time ago, I was a certified in three states to teach kindergarten through eighth grade. Please don’t think for a minute that I really believe that piece of paper qualified me to do what I do. The best homeschooling moms I know are not teachers by trade. My certification did not equip me or qualify me to homeschool.  It did, however, provide me with first hand experience in the public schools. Thus I knew my children were “getting enough” in  an hour a day of academics when they were very young. I knew how much to assign to them as they matured through the elementary grades. I felt confident because I had worked with many young children. For some reason, 9th grade has put me out of my comfort zone. I am fearful that I can’t provide enough. I lack the confidence I once had.

Grammar I love. Math – not so much. I don’t speak a foreign language. I made a C in high school chemistry and biology dissections literally made me gag. I don’t want to do all that again. I like stories. I love field trips. I love knowing that if I don’t get to something, I have time. Now, I feel the stress of “running out of time.”

I’ll admit it. I’ve found myself praying for God to take the burden of homeschooling my high-schooler from me. I’ve considered classes online and classes at our co-op. I’ve wondered about community college classes and how early we can pursue those. I have sat down to plan and felt the tears welling  and wanting to spill over onto my planning book. Sometimes I just want to be mommy! I don’t want to do algebraic equations!

Yet God has called me to homeschool. He has not told me to quit. Classes outside of home this year are not feasible for our family. He did not say this journey would be easy. However, this weekend I have reflected on some things that He has said:

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philipians 4:6

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”  I Peter 5:7

“Cast your burden upon the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken.”  Psalm 55:22

“For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  Matthew 11:30

I will pray. I will cast my cares on him. As I walk with Him, He will carry this load. His burden is light! We will do this high school thing. And in so doing, His joy will be my strength!

The joy of the Lord will be my strength
He will uphold me all of my days
I am surrounded by mercy and grace
And the joy of the Lord is my strength!

Verse 2 “The Joy of the Lord” by Twila Paris

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4 Responses to “This High School Thing”

  1. Cindy Says:

    And here I thought you knew it all! LOL. Bless your heart. I’m praying for you to find your way! (Maybe I can get a similar prayer from you?) I don’t admit it much, but patience with little ones is not my strong suit. And yet, here I am, running a daycare/elementary school. Why does God call us to things that seem so over-the-top hard? You’re gonna do a fantastic job. You’ve already proven you can turn out some great kids. Just keep doing what you’re doing!

    And when you’re finished, you can tell me how you did it!

  2. Tina Says:

    You bet I’ll pray for you, Cindy!!!!! I tend avoid writing about things that are hard for me. Conversationally, I admit difficulties quickly. However, I so want my posts to be an encouragement to others! There is encouragement, however, in knowing that everyone struggles. And that God is big enough (and promises!) to equip us and help us do hard things!

  3. Catherine Mikkola Says:

    Tina, I love your blog posts!! You’re so right in turning to our Savior — that’s is the only way to get through anything! And, because you know the right place to look for your strength, you’ll do great!

    I can now tell you that the only thing more scary than high school transcripts is watching your “babies” go into college, and having to back off – even when they’re still living at home – and let them fly (or flop?) on their own. So, I’m done homeschooling, but I’m sure not done crying out to HIM for hel-l-l-l-pppp!!

  4. MamaHen Says:

    This is the first year (well, since K5) that I have felt overwhelmed by teaching my children. My oldest is starting 7th grade and it just isn’t the same. You said it so well, “Sometimes I just want to be the mommy!”

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